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Abundant living

What do people get really get for their hard work?  If we obey the laws and principles of this life, this world, life for everybody can be abundant.

Our father said if you come to me and seek me, you will find me and you will be blessed. We can give all the glory in the word to God, but if we are not to obey his words, and take actions into our own hands. Life turns into nothing.  He has designed all of our lives for abundance. He wants us to be free from every addiction, hurt and discontent. He did not make us to live miserable lives. he made us to find purpose. For the scripture says Everything has been decided. It was known long ago what each person would be. There  is no use arguing with God about your destiny. Ecclesiastes 6:10

This is why we must turn to our heavenly father for everything that we go through. He will guide, he will provide, he will set people free.

Book Of Ecclesiastes

There is a time for everything, a season for every activity under heaven.

This has been my most favorite book in the bible for a very long time. The first time I read this book was on 8/29/2006.   My first time building a relationship with God. I was in jail for selling drugs. I love this book because it talks about all areas of life. It talks about death, deceit, lying, other people faithfulness or lack of. It also talks about the good things in life. Like, working hard, having everything that you want. It says in the book that everything that happens under heaven is meaningless. It really helped me in the time I was in trouble because I got the worst sentence for it being my first time in trouble.

During this season in my life, I did not like the fact I got the worst of it all. My thoughts were that why do I have to do all this time in jail, fight for freedom when there were so many people who got let off, and was not punished like I was. I really had a hard time of understanding why bad people had it all. When I knew in my heart I was a good person that made bad decisions, and got punished really bad.

This booked help me because it was meaningless. All of my thoughts about people and their decisions and how they were blessed and how I thought I was not was meaningless. Why?

It does not matter what other people get for their actions we all serve the same God, and he makes our plans. He determines our destiny.

I have heard my Pastor and church talk about how depressing this book was to them here recently. I did not understand why? I was thinking that maybe I misunderstood the book. No I did not. God was using king Solomon to talk about every season in life and how unjust life is. When we turn our eyes on God, it does not matter what happens on this earth, to you or anyone else. He is not saying that it is “meaningless” per say. He is saying My children let me take care of it. Give it all to me for I am the most powerful God in the Universe. there is nothing I cannot handle.

This book saved my freedom. I turned it all over to God during this time and I was saved from going to prison for 5 years.

Deep Thinking

Jesus went through a lot in his life, but he managed to stay pure, and he never sinned. He was full of Love, Peace and Joy, no matter what happened to him. He was beaten, abused, lied about, and abandoned, of course so much more. When I think about my life, and what I have been through, and have always been grateful for it, because I knew there was a plan behind it all.

In my thinking, I have been trying to figure out if the lord looks at our life, and what we have been through as us being hung on the cross Just like Jesus. With all of the bad things that happen in our lives. I do think they are similar to what Jesus went through. Although Jesus never sinned, he still was very humble, had a lot of humility, loving, caring, and he saved.

Jesus obeyed his Father in heaven. He knew the father had a plan for him. He did exactly what he was told to do. He trusted his father in heaven with all his heart. I know that this is what I do in my own life. I trust the heavenly father. It is a great feeling not to have to worry. Realistically, my heavenly father has given me everything I want, all the help that I need, and I have not done nothing with it.

Last night I was led to read 1Corithians. I wanted to read the whole book, so I did. They talk about the resurrection of Christ. Was it true? Jesus rose from the dead 3 days after being hung on the cross, he was seen by 500 followers, and 12 Apostals. He died on the cross has a human, rose from the dead, and came back in Spirit. He died for us, and for our sins.

I’d like to think of our sinful nature has being dead. As humans, we have free will, and a choice. No matter what walk of life we lived, or subject too. When we follow the way of the world, and live a earthly life, and caught up in Addictions, cursing, disrespect, jealousy, envy and so much more, wouldn’t we be considered dead. Dead on the inside. Sin becomes the way of  living, we worship our sins, and live them out day to day. There is no self control, no self discipline, no self Love. Just living the worldly life, and giving into worldly standards. We live for sin.

When giving up control of everything to the Heavenly father, we can become transformed.. Brought back to life, just has Jesus was brought back to life, when he was risen from the dead. If we can believe that Jesus was once human, risen from the dead in spirit and know that he saves and transforms people by believing in him, and the power of the holy spirit. Then we have no reason to keep sinning over and over again. If one keeps sinning over and over again, the Farther will have you under a curse, and you will be miserable and the most unhappiest person in the world.

This has been heavy on my mind, and have been really thinking about this. Not only did my father in heaven give me conformation on what I was thinking, but he gave me more to think about. My father in heaven will never forsake me, and will never leave me.

I thank you Father in heaven for all of the things you have entered in to my life, lord I thank you for blessing me in so many ways. I thank you for the people you have put in my life, and I just thank you for Jesus, and the power of the holy spirit. Thank you Jesus for filling my mind with more to think about other than my own earthly desires. Please forgive me of my sins Lord, and help me build my character to be more like you. Help me build the foundation of my life, based on the seed you plant in my heart. Lord I am forever Grateful for your Grace Love and Mercy.

I am very grateful

I had a pretty good day today. Still sober woo woo. It’s wonders how you feel once you fear God in a different way than normal. Really the way to fear him is to be grateful for everything that has happened in your life, know matter what it is. I already had that kind of fear from him. I never have blamed him for anything that has happened in my life, have always been grateful. Why? I do not know why. I am guessing he has a plan for me.

The kind of fear I have now, is what he is going to do to me if I keep sinning, because he really wants to bless me. I have not been open to the blessing and he knows it. I was not willing to put him first, my sinning has controlled my life. Even though I know he is watching everything. One little scare is all I needed. I feel blessed and very different today.

Out of the stump of David’s family will grow a shoot-a new branch bearing fruit from the old root.  And the spirit of the Lord will rest in him- the spirit of wisdom and understanding, the spirit of counsel and might, the spirit of knowledge and the fear of the Lord. Isaiah 11:1-2 NLT

I absolutely love it when the Lord talks straight to me. It happens a lot even though I did not fear him in the way of what he would do to me if I kept sinning. It also says in the bible those who fear the Lord will be truly blessed. Thank you Jesus for all you do, and giving me the courage to have understanding and gratefulness in my heart.

Drinking

Here it is 4:45pm in the afternoon and I want to drink. As I sit and argue with myself in my head. WTF. Why do I want to drink? Then the Christian song “Hold on to the promises” by Sanctus Real is playing in my head. Why? God promises us great rewards who obey him. It just really stinks that I can drink. I have to think about my the consequences will be if I drink.

1. Not being a good role model for my daughter.

2. Will get angry, crying, and fighting.

3. It causes huge problems in my relationship.

4. Killing myself.

5. Cost money that I don’t have.

6. Ruining my life.

7. Won’t be able to stop if I start.

8. So why Start.

What is the benefits of staying sober?

1. Not harming myself, or anyone else.

2. Being a good mother, and role model for my daughter.

3. I will have a lot of stuff done by the end of the day.

4. I won’t feel worthless.

5. My attitude will get better as time goes on.

6. I am saving money, getting healthier.

7. On my way to being the person I know and Love.

8. Being obedient to the Lord, so I can receive the blessings waiting for myself and daughter.

9. I will stay Sober.

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God’s Wisdom vs Human Wisdom

No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him.

When I think of the word Wisdom, I think knowledge, love, self control, self discipline, and I think experience. God’s wisdom is the foundation before the house is built, or the seed before it sprouts. I have always thought of myself as being wise in many areas of my life. I grew up pretty fast, and was never really a kid. It’s amazing you can act 40 at 13, and 13 years old at 40. The lord is strange in this area of planning for my future and purpose.

There is a difference in God’s wisdom and Human wisdom. Human wisdom is the worlds view on morals, values, and the way their life is. God’s Wisdom, is peaceful, loving, caring, forgiving and so much more. When we accept Jesus in our hearts, God’s spirit is with in us. This is the best feeling in the world when you can embrace it, really feel it in your heart. Last night I was laying in bed, talking to Jesus and the Lord. I felt their presence all through my body. The feeling is like a peaceful case of the chills.

We when have his spirit with in us and feel it, that is when he reveals the spiritual gifts he has given to EVERYONE. It does not matter what race, color, a mouse or insects. His spirit is with everything. I have learned over the last year or so that I have a very unique spiritual gift. That’s is I am able to communicate with spirits, I have learned that in many ways I am Physic. I have also learned of another very powerful spiritual gift, that very few people know I have. God, has not lead me to reveal that right now. I do believe that is because I don’t know if I believe it either.

God has revealed all of this through his spirit. He shows me piece by piece even if I am still sinning. He has great Love for me, and for everyone. He also has a plan for all of us too. That is why we much praise him for everything. We must bring one another together and worship Christ himself. We are all called to worship Christ for he died on the cross for our sin. When we call his name, he takes you by the hand and walks you on the path to righteousness, and leads you to your purpose. I believe this is why he made.

My life is getting pretty exciting when I think about all this. it is amazing how much I have been blessed, taught, and I thank the Lord for everything.

The ones doing the planting and or watering aren’t important, but god is important because he is the one to make the seed grow. The one who plants and waters work as a team with the same purpose. Yet they will be rewarded individually, according to their own hard work. We work together as partners because we belong to God. You are God’s field, God’s building-not ours. 1 Corinthians 3:7-9

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