Here is the reality of my situation. My God has given me a huge opportunity to change my life for the good. Not only my life but millions of others. What is Melissa doing about it? Nothing!

My God has given me everything I could ever want in my life. It is right at my finger tips. I know it is. Through my selfishness, self pity, confusion, and addictions I am failing. Why, wouldn’t I want to obey God, when I know what he has in store for me. It’s Insanity.

I have all of these plans in my head, plans of success, plans of my dreams coming true. I have the ability to change lives the way God wants me to. Everything around me is falling apart, everyone is in need of money, everyone around me is struggling. I can change everything around for everyone if I would just work. It is ridiculous. I have disappointed everyone, I have been plain selfish.

Really the reality of my situation is my plain stupidity and ignorance of not wanting to work.

Lazy people want much but get little, but those who work hard will prosper and be satisfied. Proverbs 13:4

Abundant living

What do people get really get for their hard work?  If we obey the laws and principles of this life, this world, life for everybody can be abundant.

Our father said if you come to me and seek me, you will find me and you will be blessed. We can give all the glory in the word to God, but if we are not to obey his words, and take actions into our own hands. Life turns into nothing.  He has designed all of our lives for abundance. He wants us to be free from every addiction, hurt and discontent. He did not make us to live miserable lives. he made us to find purpose. For the scripture says Everything has been decided. It was known long ago what each person would be. There  is no use arguing with God about your destiny. Ecclesiastes 6:10

This is why we must turn to our heavenly father for everything that we go through. He will guide, he will provide, he will set people free.

Book Of Ecclesiastes

There is a time for everything, a season for every activity under heaven.

This has been my most favorite book in the bible for a very long time. The first time I read this book was on 8/29/2006.   My first time building a relationship with God. I was in jail for selling drugs. I love this book because it talks about all areas of life. It talks about death, deceit, lying, other people faithfulness or lack of. It also talks about the good things in life. Like, working hard, having everything that you want. It says in the book that everything that happens under heaven is meaningless. It really helped me in the time I was in trouble because I got the worst sentence for it being my first time in trouble.

During this season in my life, I did not like the fact I got the worst of it all. My thoughts were that why do I have to do all this time in jail, fight for freedom when there were so many people who got let off, and was not punished like I was. I really had a hard time of understanding why bad people had it all. When I knew in my heart I was a good person that made bad decisions, and got punished really bad.

This booked help me because it was meaningless. All of my thoughts about people and their decisions and how they were blessed and how I thought I was not was meaningless. Why?

It does not matter what other people get for their actions we all serve the same God, and he makes our plans. He determines our destiny.

I have heard my Pastor and church talk about how depressing this book was to them here recently. I did not understand why? I was thinking that maybe I misunderstood the book. No I did not. God was using king Solomon to talk about every season in life and how unjust life is. When we turn our eyes on God, it does not matter what happens on this earth, to you or anyone else. He is not saying that it is “meaningless” per say. He is saying My children let me take care of it. Give it all to me for I am the most powerful God in the Universe. there is nothing I cannot handle.

This book saved my freedom. I turned it all over to God during this time and I was saved from going to prison for 5 years.

Memoir (Cento)

Beautiful pictures. Absolutely love them. Thank you for sharing.

O at the Edges


Memoir (Cento)

Your hands touched
everything. Will you

be a fountain
or a sea?

A woman sleeps next to me
on the earth. Now

nothing else keeps my eyes
in the cloud.

Each rock is news.

A cento is composed of lines from poems by other
poets. This cento originated from pieces in:

77 Poems, Alberto de Lacerda
Because the Sea is Black, Blaga Dimitrova
Body Rags, Galway Kinnell
Song of the Simple Truth, Julia de Burgos
Love Poems, Anne Sexton

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Deep Thinking

Jesus went through a lot in his life, but he managed to stay pure, and he never sinned. He was full of Love, Peace and Joy, no matter what happened to him. He was beaten, abused, lied about, and abandoned, of course so much more. When I think about my life, and what I have been through, and have always been grateful for it, because I knew there was a plan behind it all.

In my thinking, I have been trying to figure out if the lord looks at our life, and what we have been through as us being hung on the cross Just like Jesus. With all of the bad things that happen in our lives. I do think they are similar to what Jesus went through. Although Jesus never sinned, he still was very humble, had a lot of humility, loving, caring, and he saved.

Jesus obeyed his Father in heaven. He knew the father had a plan for him. He did exactly what he was told to do. He trusted his father in heaven with all his heart. I know that this is what I do in my own life. I trust the heavenly father. It is a great feeling not to have to worry. Realistically, my heavenly father has given me everything I want, all the help that I need, and I have not done nothing with it.

Last night I was led to read 1Corithians. I wanted to read the whole book, so I did. They talk about the resurrection of Christ. Was it true? Jesus rose from the dead 3 days after being hung on the cross, he was seen by 500 followers, and 12 Apostals. He died on the cross has a human, rose from the dead, and came back in Spirit. He died for us, and for our sins.

I’d like to think of our sinful nature has being dead. As humans, we have free will, and a choice. No matter what walk of life we lived, or subject too. When we follow the way of the world, and live a earthly life, and caught up in Addictions, cursing, disrespect, jealousy, envy and so much more, wouldn’t we be considered dead. Dead on the inside. Sin becomes the way of  living, we worship our sins, and live them out day to day. There is no self control, no self discipline, no self Love. Just living the worldly life, and giving into worldly standards. We live for sin.

When giving up control of everything to the Heavenly father, we can become transformed.. Brought back to life, just has Jesus was brought back to life, when he was risen from the dead. If we can believe that Jesus was once human, risen from the dead in spirit and know that he saves and transforms people by believing in him, and the power of the holy spirit. Then we have no reason to keep sinning over and over again. If one keeps sinning over and over again, the Farther will have you under a curse, and you will be miserable and the most unhappiest person in the world.

This has been heavy on my mind, and have been really thinking about this. Not only did my father in heaven give me conformation on what I was thinking, but he gave me more to think about. My father in heaven will never forsake me, and will never leave me.

I thank you Father in heaven for all of the things you have entered in to my life, lord I thank you for blessing me in so many ways. I thank you for the people you have put in my life, and I just thank you for Jesus, and the power of the holy spirit. Thank you Jesus for filling my mind with more to think about other than my own earthly desires. Please forgive me of my sins Lord, and help me build my character to be more like you. Help me build the foundation of my life, based on the seed you plant in my heart. Lord I am forever Grateful for your Grace Love and Mercy.

Pain With Purpose

For I know the plans I have for you says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you future and hope. Jeremiah 29:11

I know this is true especially in my life. All of the pain and sorrow is not for any reason. I think not even knowing what my life had for me growing up, I was still very thankful. The Lord would let me heal from one painful disaster just to turn around to another. That’s how it seemed, anyways.

When I was younger, my Grandmother would make us go to church. I did not mind going, it was fun. We lived in a little town of Milford, Texas. My paternal family lived there for many years. In fact my Great Great Grandfather was a pastor there for many years. If we did not go to church we had to watch Dr. Schuller on T.V. He was great.

I love the lord with all my heart. I would not trade anything for the love that I feel for him and what he has done in my life. I know because of my gratefulness he wants to bless me. It was hard to accept it, because I have never thought of myself has anything. What I mean is nobody special.

I am learning now that I am just a special to my Father in heaven as he is to me. Today let it shine.


Haiku Odyssey

ANNOUNCING MY NEW BOOK — The Complete Guide to Writing Haiku

Some of you have already seen this announcement, and I promise not to smack you in the face with it every day or so.  I hope to figure out soon how to put a small ad in the columnar data on the right side so that this shameless marketing by post is no longer necessary.

I’m also taking this opportunity to ask for your help in reblogging this post and any other that has to do with the new book.  Please?   For those of you who may have read the first announcement and may be tempted to skip over the rest of this, let me remind you that the link below will lead you to some really interesting facts about the author.  (At least *I* think it’s interesting!)

Now the announcement.


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